So here we are in week 6 of the Master Key Experience, I wish I could say here we all are, but some of us have given up on themselves, used the time or difficulty excuse – but how about the oldie but goody; is going to kill me?
Little bit of background … while this is my first MKMMA – it is the third experience I’ve had with Mark & Co. with DMP’s and PPNs the first two as Think & Grow Rich Experiences; on each of these occasions all is going well; stretching making positive changes beginning to understand and like what I’m doing and then … like a clockwork Week 6. The Fab D asked about inexplicable experiences I don’t think she anticipated this inexplicable experience. In each of the three experiences during Week 6 I get sick – in an excruciatingly painful manner … to put it in base and vulgar terminology Week 6 SUCKS for me.
In the first two experiences it was; Shingles, shingles (in my eyes and ears – ugh!) messed with my pain coping processes. Beyond feeling like acid being poured into my nerves; my nerves and their brisk startle responses off the charts touchy. I spent hours in Chapter 4 of T&GR – Autosuggestion; thousands upon thousands of times a day positive suggestion that I’m healthy; that my body is strong; my body is able to overcome any illness it faces – again and again and from past experience I know that my body is strong and can overcome everything that has been thrown at it (see UnAbridged Natalie Z for the in depth story). Knowing that it’s going to be alright AND at the same time having the strength and focus to write a new blueprint are sometime Worlds apart. Two T&GR experiences two shingles excuses.
So here we are Week 6.
It started out like all the rest of the weeks of this experience; bright full of hope and Monday BAM! my vision changes (I thought great more shingles ramifications) I am having trouble seeing to read – then swelling in my eye and pain oh the pain. Redness, swelling – it’s rough but I can handle it… I have most of the aspects of the daily grind memorized … struggling through the Scroll II (because I LOVE it!) the Master Keys ugh! Then I remember audios of Master Keys and Emerson’s Compensation on the way to the ER last night – couldn’t get into the Dr. until next week and I have a thin hold on my fear of death. So blogging, not about what I planned (I’ll post it at a later time) – yep getting sick stinks – getting sick enough that my fear of death starts not just whispering in my ear but has a whole section of reserved seating in my brain (last weeks voices had nothing on these voices). No longer just whispering yelling like major Pats fans. Illness in Week 6 – I was out twice before, but not this time; old blueprint of run and focus on nothing but health – not a lot of balance in life there, I know.
This time yes the inexplicable Week 6 Sucks – I’m Sick, again, but this time I’m breaking the cycle with what I’m focusing on – and no it’s not on the suckyness of being sick even though the blog post to this point isn’t clear on this point but what is changed is my focus – the bigger picture; the daily grind, the feeling like I am still going to do my best, the humbling acknowledgment that yep I probably not only have brisk nerves, but I also have a fear of death. I also have the 7 Laws of the Mind (so glad we put those on our DMP before this week) that are playing key positions in my magnification of the life I want and it’s cool enough that I’m willing to once and for all say yep, I’m probably not getting out of this life alive, but I can certainly get out of this life what I’m willing to put effort and time into – I Can Be What I Will To Be! I will to be healthy, I will to be whole, I will to be so excited about all the shapes and colors and scrolls and wonder of the Universal and the true ‘I’ that I always keep my promises and use my focus to digging in and by whatever means necessary thriving and growing in the MKMMA and once and for all kicking this fear in the teeth (and sticking a finger in it’s eye, oh wait that’s my eye I’m sticking my finger in to put the meds on) and rather than resisting I’ll relax; I’ll turn from it that it will have no power over me; no power in my life because I give power to those things that give the greatest good to the greatest number.
I ask you for kind thoughts and prayers of healing and a spare moment for sending me all the best medicine – you know baby giggles, snuggling with puppies and kitties, great big belly laughs, big bear hugs, happy tears (and clearing tear ducts), singing in the shower and in the rain, old friends and new friends because I’m worth it and I have a lot to improve and an amazing life of growth and sharing, and more than 20 weeks left to go in this MKMMA experience.
I’m changing – and Week 6 Suckyness you’re outta here! Seriously, looking forward to Week 7. Think a healthy thought ;).